My plan was to set myself up with routines and schedules BEFORE I got a job so that I wouldn’t be overcome with everything i needed to do in the mornings before heading to work.
Well, I thought that I had my routines and schedules down to a science. Boy was I ever wrong!!
This morning was my first day of work and I had to be there for 10am. I was freaking out that I was going to forget something or run out of time to get ready and was spinning in circles like a nut case.
This is when I realized that I REALLY need to have prompts to tell me what to do because my anxiety completely blinds me when I have somewhere to be first thing in the morning.
When I can take my time to get where I need to be then I am completely okay. I don’t forget things like to do yoga after I get off the elliptical. That’s what happened this morning; I was buck naked about to get in the shower and I realized that I forgot to do stretches and weights. Silly me! There was no way I was putting my sweaty clothes back on. Yoga would have to wait until the afternoon.
All this said, it is INCREDIBLE how anxiety can completely blind me. I get into this completely frazzled state and am running around like a lunatic, not actually accomplishing anything!
I know that I am time blind and my anxiety skyrockets when I have somewhere to be. I freak out that I am going to forget something and I have to keep checking the time.
Guess who is going to re-download the app Brili (you can also use 30/30) so that I can stay on track?! Yes, it is for kids – but, let’s face it! I am a grown up child 🙂